Letting go

I’m a very busy person. I can’t stop myself from taking on more and more projects, partly because I enjoy it and like to be busy, but also because I’m concerned that as a single mother, there won’t be enough for my children. I’m attempting to schedule my life at times, but as you all know, this does not work. I understand that there should be a basic schedule, but there are many times when we must choose different priorities, including our own well-being. Sometimes we just need to go with the flow of life and not worry about how much work we should still be doing but haven’t.

Yesterday was an excellent example of overthinking. I was thinking too much about the words and lyrics while I was chanting a prayer and whether I was doing it correctly while on stage in service because I wanted my daughter, who had come along, to learn from it. So I just got confused while thinking too much and lost my breath, forcing me to stop and leave the stage! This had never happened to me before, and I was shocked. In our world, you don’t want to show how weak you are.

I hope this post is useful to some of you who may be in a similar situation.

I’m not perfect

I’m sure no one wants to make mistakes and be exposed like I was yesterday. I kept going until I couldn’t breathe and felt like I was in a panic. There was no longer any point in me remaining on stage, so I went off and took several deep breaths. The service went on without me, despite the fact that the audience was surprised, but they let me be. I was surprised that only one or two people, including my daughter, asked me if I was okay. And, yes, it took me about ten long seconds to get back up. It seemed to last forever to me, but it could have been different for others, as the “show” must go on, right?

I don’t like making mistakes, and replaying what happened in my head a thousand times will not change the outcome.
We learn from our mistakes, and we are only human, which makes us vulnerable!

Too much thinking

How often do we consider how much work awaits us? Even now, I can tell you that I chose to write this post over an assignment that was due a while ago. Nonetheless, I chose to write because I felt compelled to express myself and, perhaps, to help others.

I was thinking about the tune yesterday when I was in that awkward situation, as I was suddenly wondering if I was singing a prayer correctly?! I mean, I’ve been singing this song prayer for the past seven years, so why was I suddenly thinking about it? I was hoping to impress my daughter, who needed to learn this for her Bat Mitzvah, but there was more. I was also thinking about the text because I like to be present and read and understand what I’m reading. At that point, I was beginning to doubt whether I was truly present because I don’t like being an automate pilot… and I was also concerned about things that might happen, What happens next? Is this a case of stage fright or anxiety? I was just losing it and couldn’t remember how to keep going, so I was stressed out instead of just being and enjoying the process!

Being scared

Who does not wonder what will happen if something bad happens? When I lost my breath, I was afraid I would fall or something bad would happen, and it could have happened, but thinking about it wouldn’t help, right? These existential

questions sometimes appear out of nowhere. I was terrified at the time, as these thoughts raced through my mind. I believe that being scared can protect you from potentially dangerous situations. Fear, on the other hand, prevents you from trying new things and growing!

Let it go

Elsa from “Frozen” was afraid of her power and did not want to cause a tragedy; however, when she recognised that her weakness is a part of her individuality and let go of doubts, fears, limitations, and deception, she embraced herself completely and felt free and strong.
As a curiosity, I wanted to see what Eileen Caddy’s Daily Guidance for Sunday, January 15th had to say, and I got exactly what I was looking for!

“Let go and allow Me to take over, because the more stress and strain you have in your life, the less you get done. Why not flow with nature, with the tide, and do what needs to be done simply, naturally, and joyfully? Why not enjoy life instead of dreading it and forcing yourself to do this, that, and the other without any joy or love? When you are in harmony with life and stop resisting anything, it is wonderful. Why complicate matters for yourself”?

Another book that comes to my head that help a lot with all of these disturbing thoughts is the “letting go” book of David R. Hawkins. “When we are free, we let go of our attachments. We can enjoy something, but we don’t need it to be happy “. This letting go technique is covered in detail in his book.

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Conclusion

I’m glad I decided to write again, even though I have a lot of other things to do. I let it go and lived in the moment, and I’ll just flow like with yoga. In this post, I shared how I’ve to let go of negative thoughts and what our society may construct. I am not perfect, and I have the courage to admit it. I am scared at times, but I must remember that this will not prevent me from developing and doing what I enjoy!

I’m just letting go of my thoughts and following my dreams. I invite you to join the ride and let go!